The 5 Best Toys of All Time!

1. Stick 2. Box 3. String 4. Cardboard Tube 5. Dirt 'nuff said Goddess

Christmas sometimes depresses the fuck out of Goddess!!!

I know I have to put most off this shit in the proper light, but MAN! What I wouldn't give to enjoy a pleasant surprise every once in a while. Christmas has always been one of those holidays when I so look forward to that special day of food, family, fun, and surprises. I am a giver and i truly look forward to those special occasion when i am actually given something. well..... Perhaps my heart is broken and it was my own son who faced the responsibility of handing out broken hearts today. He has been working himself into a frothy mess trying to get his ass to BIG LOTS without me to buy a couple of items of interest. I was excited as most children are thinking i was going to get a cute little something my son really wanted to give me to show me how much he loved me and was into the christmas spirit. he came back with a hand-buzzer and a tube of green and orange Goop! not his fault. i have to lower my expectations of being treated in a special way the way i WANT to be treated. Goddess knows she set herself up for that but you know what i always say......it is a pain in the ass to suffer from an incurable case of HOPE. *claps hands* "that's it kids! Pity party is over. nothin' to see here!" Goddess.
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Shut the Hell Up! It's Christmas Dammit!

There are a great many things i would like to clear out this Christmas season.... Nitpicky Grammar Nazis Jealous Lovers Whining Children Weak Drinks Want for Necessities can we put all that mess in a brown paper bag and set it afire for Christmas? the kids will be thrilled to see FIRE and the adults will be too busy putting marshmallows on sticks for the kids to roast to talk about anything but Christmas cheer. it's too damned close to Christmas to act like fools, be cheap, be without, and run around correcting folks grammar....Now if anyone wants to send a gift my way, i am sure to find some unfortunate folks in my side of the world to make happy during this holiday season of spending TIME and not necessarily MONEY on family members. Goddess
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Santa Who?

i'm busted!

my son has been bugging me over the past week about Santa...
he keeps coming at me with "what is Santa really?"

i danced around it long enough.

i explained to him that Santa is an idea. a fantastic idea that some parents use to convince their children to behave through the year. it seems easier to please a person who is larger than life than to please your parents sometimes. i told him that Santa is just like the imaginary friends that he has. while he is playing with them, they are real to him.
i told him that he can still believe in Santa. he just has to understand that the gifts do come from mom and dad mostly. i had to explain to him that it is the spirit of chirstmas that keeps the idea and concept of Santa alive.
i didn't bring up the Easter Bunny or the Tooth Fairie, or the Sandman or anyone else in the land of make believe. he took my answer. i did express to him that it was very important not to share the information because it would break the hearts of the other
kids who truly believe that santa is real. i told him that Christmas will not change. gifts will still be addressed from Santa. that is how we celebrate christmas with Santa.
i also asked my son what the real reason why celebrate christmas is. he knew it was about Mary and Joseph and Jesus. i explained to him that Jesus was a very important person in our lives because he gave the ultimate sacrifice to save us all. i let him know that God was very upset with us because we were not following the rules and behaving like sensible people should. and that God gave us 2 more chances. he would send his Son to remind us how we were supposed to act. when we didn't listen to his Son, God decided that he had to sacrifice his only son to help us understand just how precious life is and how important it is to listen to and learn about the right way to behave and live.
i said that Jesus was a very important guy and that what better way to celebrate his birthday than to share the concept of the gift that he gave to us by giving gifts to other in remembrance of what he did.
somehow, i see this all coming back to hit me in the face, but i couldn't keep dodging the subject. he really wanted to know and he was okay with my explanation.

life goes on

Pay it forward

I have always believed strongly in the power of giving. i have always believed that if you give a little, that is all you have to do. don't expect anything in return, but be grateful if it does come back to you.

today, Milo and i went to Denny's after Mass and stopping by to say hi to Michelle's momma. he was all decked out in one of the new shirt and tie sets he got for Christmas. we got to the building and you know how you stand at the counter waiting for someone to ask you "how many?" well we stood there for a minute when two men walked in. they looked like business men with their logos on shirts look and trench jackets. well the girl looked up and asked the men before me and milo "how many?" no question perhaps of who was here first, but she just took the two professional men over the mother and child. i won't pull the race card, she was just not using her common sense. so i started to stew about it and was about to leave. the other lady at the counter sat us after a few minutes. she could see i was pissed. *sigh* what to do.
so i went as far as telling her what happened. nothing else happened. i am so not surprised.
i tried to let it go. i had lost my appetite but i ordered anyway (milo usually polishes off what i don't eat anyway). i was thinking up ways to ask for a comp meal or something for the horrible hospitality, when a lady came up to my table and handed me a coupon for 20% off my entire tab. how very nice of her. she gave one to the table behind me as well. she said she would not be back by the time the rest of them expired so i thanked her and forgot all about the huff and puff i was about to raise.

so off to the counter Milo and I go to pay our tab. i was thinking that she deserved a surprise. so i paid her tab. that's right. that lady was there with three kids. i paid her tab. my tab after the coupon wasn't even 10 bucks so i paid it. me and Milo went back to thank her for the coupon and were on our way. Milo was trying to figure out what we had just done. i told him that we just shared a smile. if we could make her day by paying her tab, we were paying her back in kindness for the coupon she gave us while asking for nothing in return. i told him that if she is smiling and she passes that smile onto someone else, they would probably pass it on to someone else and milo chimed in with " and people would be smiling all over California". i added a bit more by telling him that hopefully it would be the cause of people smiling all over the world.

then we went home and i cleaned the kitchen while Milo played in his room.
there is so much that i cannot give my son materialistically, but i can give him so much more on the spiritual and emotional level. milo was dressed so smartly for church. he really has a way with people. when we get to the part where we show the sign of peace to one another, milo is the first with his hand out there saying Peace be with You. today he Hi Fived one of our Deacons. it was cute. i love my son. i love that he loves God. i love that he watches Father Joe in awe. i also love that he is not at all afraid to ask questions. even if it means that he might be setting an adult straight. like Jesus in the temple.
whatever my son becomes in life, i know that i started him off right. i am giving him what he needs to be a good Christian citizen. a child of God. a mother's son.

this job i love.

i was touched in this same way. i don't know when and i don't know by whom, but i have always had this in my heart. i am glad to see that it was not a fluke with me and that i can pass this on to my son.
please, everyone, pay it forward if you can.

pay for someone mocha at starbucks or smile at a person who may or may not need it. give a person room to make a lane change or just wave someone across the intersection even if they stopped a split second after you.
i have been blessed and i am more than grateful. don't get me wrong, i am still human, but i know things could be much worse. things could be better, but they could be worse. i know that i can give what i can and be content that i have done my part and will continue to do so.

somehow, this season has changed me. i can't describe it.

g